BigManPE
10-25-09, 08:46 PM
I thought it might be good to come here and post this and get some opinions from the Females and males as well too if you guys want to but.
To start, I have been involved with a person (long distant relationship) for about 1 year and a couple months. She is very dominant and bossy as hell. and the worst thing about it is she has way too much pride to ever admit when she's wrong and own up to shit. I've tried and tired giving her my all. I've shown her much loyalty all the way for real and It's like she was my everything and my all and like my whole heart to be honest. I don't feel appreciated, I'm called a liar, it's very dysfunctional and I don't even know where we're at right now, we've been trying to get on a friend level but she went off on me about shit I've done and chews me out because of it and the thing is..I owned up to my fuck ups. but she never admits to the wrong she has done. I NEVER get a compromise and she recently said some fucked up shit to me dealing with her ex's or ex fuck buddies or whatever saying that her sleeping with these dog nasty bastards who are scum isn't as bad as me talking to a few girls just conversing after the fact she kept breaking up with me. And i was just like wow wtf.
Well I went to a party last night and there was a girl there that I knew a long time ago and to be quite honest I don't want a relationship with her, but I feel like I might have lead her on and I don't want to be an asshole. She was touching me and I touched on her too. And i feel I've made such a mistake by doing that. She messaged me on a certain website (not this one of course) and wants me to call her. Even though I'm not in a relationship with the girl i've been dealing with I still feel like I've hurt her. At the same time I try to be colder to the situation and be like "well she NEVER told me about the guys she was messaging and flirting with that I had to look in her messages to find out, and the couple of times she was on the fuckin phone with my enemy after I told her I had problems with this guy, why feel bad?" Thing is I actually touched a girl and although I'm not sure what she may have done behind my back, I'd feel like real shit if she never touched a guy when we were going out then for me to touch on a girl. But i'm trying not to feel shitty by trying to realize.. me and her aren't in a relationship but I feel like she still has love for me and still kind of loves me and I feel the same.
What should I do??? I feel stressed out about this and I feel real wrong. One for having feelings for a girl and I go and do this. Like I said even though we're not in a relationship I know she would sooo throw this up in my face and never let this down especially if I told her now or sometime soon, maybe this is a thing where if Her and I work out I'd tell her this shit years down the road. Also number two is for leading on another girl. She's nice and seems to be a sweet person but oh man, I don't want to get involved and I KNOW I interested her, and wanting to do something. I'm trying to feel cold like the girl I have feelings for like she has displayed to me, and I've told her she has crushed me and fucked with my heart so bad. I told her about all the nights I've cried about things that she has hurt me with and she still shows nothing. About an hour or more ago she said I wasn't a man and I was the bitch and biggest pussy in the world and basically told me I idolized this guy I have a problem with that she spread for a couple of years ago that he even threw in my face about them having sex. Do you know how that can make a person feel? and then for this guy to do songs and put it out there for people to hear? And she throws someone like that in my face? Damn. Just based off that fact and realizing just now what I wrote, I have every right to be cold to this situation. But dammit, I feel like I'm too damn sweet and caring and that I easily feel wrong still for things and still don't want to be cold to her and break it with her forever. I just don't know. What's everyones opinion?
To start, I have been involved with a person (long distant relationship) for about 1 year and a couple months. She is very dominant and bossy as hell. and the worst thing about it is she has way too much pride to ever admit when she's wrong and own up to shit. I've tried and tired giving her my all. I've shown her much loyalty all the way for real and It's like she was my everything and my all and like my whole heart to be honest. I don't feel appreciated, I'm called a liar, it's very dysfunctional and I don't even know where we're at right now, we've been trying to get on a friend level but she went off on me about shit I've done and chews me out because of it and the thing is..I owned up to my fuck ups. but she never admits to the wrong she has done. I NEVER get a compromise and she recently said some fucked up shit to me dealing with her ex's or ex fuck buddies or whatever saying that her sleeping with these dog nasty bastards who are scum isn't as bad as me talking to a few girls just conversing after the fact she kept breaking up with me. And i was just like wow wtf.
Well I went to a party last night and there was a girl there that I knew a long time ago and to be quite honest I don't want a relationship with her, but I feel like I might have lead her on and I don't want to be an asshole. She was touching me and I touched on her too. And i feel I've made such a mistake by doing that. She messaged me on a certain website (not this one of course) and wants me to call her. Even though I'm not in a relationship with the girl i've been dealing with I still feel like I've hurt her. At the same time I try to be colder to the situation and be like "well she NEVER told me about the guys she was messaging and flirting with that I had to look in her messages to find out, and the couple of times she was on the fuckin phone with my enemy after I told her I had problems with this guy, why feel bad?" Thing is I actually touched a girl and although I'm not sure what she may have done behind my back, I'd feel like real shit if she never touched a guy when we were going out then for me to touch on a girl. But i'm trying not to feel shitty by trying to realize.. me and her aren't in a relationship but I feel like she still has love for me and still kind of loves me and I feel the same.
What should I do??? I feel stressed out about this and I feel real wrong. One for having feelings for a girl and I go and do this. Like I said even though we're not in a relationship I know she would sooo throw this up in my face and never let this down especially if I told her now or sometime soon, maybe this is a thing where if Her and I work out I'd tell her this shit years down the road. Also number two is for leading on another girl. She's nice and seems to be a sweet person but oh man, I don't want to get involved and I KNOW I interested her, and wanting to do something. I'm trying to feel cold like the girl I have feelings for like she has displayed to me, and I've told her she has crushed me and fucked with my heart so bad. I told her about all the nights I've cried about things that she has hurt me with and she still shows nothing. About an hour or more ago she said I wasn't a man and I was the bitch and biggest pussy in the world and basically told me I idolized this guy I have a problem with that she spread for a couple of years ago that he even threw in my face about them having sex. Do you know how that can make a person feel? and then for this guy to do songs and put it out there for people to hear? And she throws someone like that in my face? Damn. Just based off that fact and realizing just now what I wrote, I have every right to be cold to this situation. But dammit, I feel like I'm too damn sweet and caring and that I easily feel wrong still for things and still don't want to be cold to her and break it with her forever. I just don't know. What's everyones opinion?