NippleHuztln
08-23-11, 10:42 PM
I have been GOING THROUGH IT. It will not matter whatsoever but I need to write about it.
Can somebody else just go through this for me? I was rich it just got stolen- heart and body. Its just a bitch to get it back but I'll get it. 10,000 dollars just GONE the person I love the most ever never was my favorite sport deserted. I'm afraid to ask whats next cos I know its gona be my only close friends dying or worse you know what else this year just got tougher and tougher. If it wasn't enough I worked so hard at staying sober(btw, if you need to quit smoking- the best way is to slowly cut back, eat lots of fruit, chew lots of gum, then just quit for 3 full days. Pay attention to your appetite because you WILL gain weight).
I quit years ago. I am loving the way I look its the way I feel inside really it hurts in me.
There isn't a specific reason, oh you know it was I stopped Xanax. Shit that is what this is. I only did some a couple weeks to get over a heartbreak. Then I got robbed now its tempting to jump back onto Xanax but I hate drugs and I hate being addicted to things.
This place at matters of size is pretty awesome but I belong with a crowd of less people... How can I describe it. I feel sick that I am so alone around so many people thats before the Xanax Im just talking about how I wanted to get married SO bad and guess not.
You know what I'm talking about just like never anyone else but you, and it's no one. Just my fucking sexy reflection I love to see. (Long sigh) I would just attack myself and say I am acting like such a baby but I'm not its good to hurt it really is. Is that not the way to tell you are alive? Like I said can someone else just go through this for me, please? No, you can't, not that you couldn't, but if you could too you just wouldn't, but I do. I have to. Peeps around me not so much but I meet adults who I relate deep seeded heartfelt numb life before. No, no, no not drugs actually at least I would be out with friends but I hate doin' 'em. Hate it, drugs n wasting time. $.
I really really really really really thought I was going to kill myself nothing sounded more right I never felt so ready........then I didn't and I have plenty to live for even Lots more $ and relationships are beautiful when unexpected just this emptiness in between is gross! You can't always be on top I suppppose I still play with the idea of suicide. Plz spare me the phone numbers suicide is not a call for help its an act of mercy. You know how Good it must have felt when O.J. Simpson got away with murdering those people? You know WHY he did it? The "thought" of his wifes pussy slapping up and down on another man and their wet bodies pressed together and her lips feeling pleasure from someone else who was not him. He just butchered two innocent people and then walked free. Can you imagine how the parents of the victims felt? I hate to sound so morbid honestly though he prolly smokd himself such a nice fat blunt and some Patron and just watched the sun set like he was on cocaine and who knows most likely was.
Ok so now I don't know what else to say I guess I feel a little better not like it once was but a little counts each day at a time.
Can somebody else just go through this for me? I was rich it just got stolen- heart and body. Its just a bitch to get it back but I'll get it. 10,000 dollars just GONE the person I love the most ever never was my favorite sport deserted. I'm afraid to ask whats next cos I know its gona be my only close friends dying or worse you know what else this year just got tougher and tougher. If it wasn't enough I worked so hard at staying sober(btw, if you need to quit smoking- the best way is to slowly cut back, eat lots of fruit, chew lots of gum, then just quit for 3 full days. Pay attention to your appetite because you WILL gain weight).
I quit years ago. I am loving the way I look its the way I feel inside really it hurts in me.
There isn't a specific reason, oh you know it was I stopped Xanax. Shit that is what this is. I only did some a couple weeks to get over a heartbreak. Then I got robbed now its tempting to jump back onto Xanax but I hate drugs and I hate being addicted to things.
This place at matters of size is pretty awesome but I belong with a crowd of less people... How can I describe it. I feel sick that I am so alone around so many people thats before the Xanax Im just talking about how I wanted to get married SO bad and guess not.
You know what I'm talking about just like never anyone else but you, and it's no one. Just my fucking sexy reflection I love to see. (Long sigh) I would just attack myself and say I am acting like such a baby but I'm not its good to hurt it really is. Is that not the way to tell you are alive? Like I said can someone else just go through this for me, please? No, you can't, not that you couldn't, but if you could too you just wouldn't, but I do. I have to. Peeps around me not so much but I meet adults who I relate deep seeded heartfelt numb life before. No, no, no not drugs actually at least I would be out with friends but I hate doin' 'em. Hate it, drugs n wasting time. $.
I really really really really really thought I was going to kill myself nothing sounded more right I never felt so ready........then I didn't and I have plenty to live for even Lots more $ and relationships are beautiful when unexpected just this emptiness in between is gross! You can't always be on top I suppppose I still play with the idea of suicide. Plz spare me the phone numbers suicide is not a call for help its an act of mercy. You know how Good it must have felt when O.J. Simpson got away with murdering those people? You know WHY he did it? The "thought" of his wifes pussy slapping up and down on another man and their wet bodies pressed together and her lips feeling pleasure from someone else who was not him. He just butchered two innocent people and then walked free. Can you imagine how the parents of the victims felt? I hate to sound so morbid honestly though he prolly smokd himself such a nice fat blunt and some Patron and just watched the sun set like he was on cocaine and who knows most likely was.
Ok so now I don't know what else to say I guess I feel a little better not like it once was but a little counts each day at a time.