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    In a nutshell.....

    Not sure where to start. Ive lost a son, my father and my job. I've gained about 100 pounds, on medication for anxiety depression and high blood pressure. I need to be strong for my family but its not easy. Been talking to a therapist to unload the weight on my shoulders but its not helping. Some-days I don't want to get out of bed others not sure if I want to be alive. I look in the mirror and I don't even recognize myself. I'm tired. Needed to vent.
    Just trying to live 1 day at a time.
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    Re: In a nutshell.....

    Who am i to say this but i do understand your situation,i have known of people that have taken the"easy way out" and is quite sad and terrible thing to happen,I have dealt whit those feelings too and i know how does it feel..

    The words you have written below are way too useful because they can help us to continue,We should be strong we are all here to support each other... One day the at the Time..
    9X6 is my short term goal
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    Re: In a nutshell.....

    Quote Originally Posted by daironmonk View Post
    Not sure where to start. Ive lost a son, my father and my job. I've gained about 100 pounds, on medication for anxiety depression and high blood pressure. I need to be strong for my family but its not easy. Been talking to a therapist to unload the weight on my shoulders but its not helping. Some-days I don't want to get out of bed others not sure if I want to be alive. I look in the mirror and I don't even recognize myself. I'm tired. Needed to vent.
    I can relate on many levels and it took me many years to get this under control. First let me say, God bless you and the struggles you have dealt with, you are pressing on where many would give up. Loosing your Son? That is a tragedy beyond any, a parent should never outlive their child. I lost my Father also and this was a very difficult thing to get through too and gaining all that weight is expected! The medication, the depression, the lack of motivation, etc. I also understand not knowing the man in the mirror and this, in a way, is a good thing. After what you have gone through I would not want to recognize him! I can give you advice based on my own experience and I hope it helps and does not insult.


    I suffered with these issues since 1994. I have spent much of the time over these 23 years in the hospital trying to deal with extreme depression and constant suicidal tendencies. I have been diagnosed with everything under the Son and I have taken every possible combination of medications to help. None of this helped, nothing changed for me until I made a very special relationship with Jesus. It is hard to describe but in my dedication to the Passion of Jesus I have leaned to shadow my problems with His sufferings. This has not only helped me make sense of this but also give me tools to deal with it. Strange, for most of the years I heard so many voices in my head until I found Christ and now His voice has replaced the many that were there taunting me for years. I am not a church goer, I have no religious denomination, I simply love Jesus and in this I have received many graces in my sufferings. Jesus is a very cool guy, He is much like us here, in the Brotherhood, He loves you and wants to help you. I would approach Him as you would a buddy because that is what He is, your buddy who will be there for you and get you to and through this and into a new man.

    You will also receive much support from your Brothers here who will direct you through experience and love. We truly are an all accepting family and our main goal is always to help our Brothers no matter what the issue. You would think a PE site would not dive into such issues but I knew early on in my PE that my penis was not my problem, my problem was me. The Brotherhood has helped me admit the truth, disclose my personal problems and receive help, love and support. We want you to be happy and we will do what every it takes to get you there.

    Lastly, are you on any medication for psychological reasons?
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    Re: In a nutshell.....

    One will never know their 'true' strength until faced with life-altering tragedy. I'm deeply saddened for your loss, but I'm also incredibly encouraged by the mere fact of you reaching-out. This represents an inner-strength that few will ever have to muster, and also shows an honesty of self...I can't imagine the amount of courage it takes just to wake-up.
    For whatever reason, life has brought you this pain...in an odd way, you may have just been privileged to events that will allow you to morph/grow into the man you NEED to be. Grief will come and go and each person has their own schedule for healing, but make today a 'beginning' instead of 'an end'.
    We're here
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    Re: In a nutshell.....

    To those who have replied, it's appreciated. I just don't know where to go from here. And no DLD not currently on any psych meds.
    Last edited by daironmonk; 03-29-17 at 04:58 PM.
    Just trying to live 1 day at a time.

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    Re: In a nutshell.....

    Quote Originally Posted by daironmonk View Post
    To those who have replied, it's appreciated. I just don't know where to go from here. And no DLD not currently on any psych meds.
    Medication can be a HUGE help if the right medication is used. It took me a long time to get to a combination that worked perfectly for me. Before I was properly medicated I was out of commission 6 months out of the year. Today I am 100% and every issue I thought would never change has changed. The medications I take are:

    Wellbutrin
    Serequel
    Lamictal
    Klonopine

    This combination covers every possible issue with the least side effects. As a matter of fact Wellbutrin has some very positive side effects being weight loss and makes quitting smoking very easy (I have quit).

    The next piece is getting a good therapist. One that you can relate to and be intimate with. A bad counselor is like a infection, it will only get worse. A good counselor will be on your level and speak to you as a person, not a client. It should be someone you feel comfortable in every way with. My counselor is awesome as she is blind which makes honesty much easier for me. She has helped me as much as the medication. The next part is also advisable and that is using us, the Brotherhood, to help you along too. I have said this many times, but we are all here for one another and this environment is like nothing you have ever experienced. We are a true family, a true Brotherhood that loves and cares for each other.

    I will continue to pray for you and I hope that we can really help you!

    God Bless You my Brother
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    Re: In a nutshell.....

    So I met with my Dr. yesterday and he prescribed Cymbalta, hopefully it helps and I can move forward.
    Just trying to live 1 day at a time.

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    Re: In a nutshell.....

    Quote Originally Posted by daironmonk View Post
    So I met with my Dr. yesterday and he prescribed Cymbalta, hopefully it helps and I can move forward.
    Be patient with yourself and take an inventory of how you feel in all situations, if you feel that in anyway the side effects outweigh the benefits try something new. Do not waste months on something that will not work. I wasted so much time on meds that did nothing for me but cause worse issues. Today I am on just the right cocktail (after 23 years!). My life has improved 100%. I will be here for you so please keep me up on your condition, I want you to get better asap.
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    Re: In a nutshell.....

    Wow thank you
    Just trying to live 1 day at a time.

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    Re: In a nutshell.....

    Quote Originally Posted by daironmonk View Post
    Wow thank you
    Never a problem my Brother and if there is any other concerns, questions or anything else just let us know.
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    Re: In a nutshell.....

    Another Doctors visit today to schedule with the Psych in the intensive program to evaluate the meds I'm on currently. Broke down yesterday and had an emergency visit to the doctors office. which led up to it. And to top it off my EQ is shit at this point. Wifey says she understands but Im freaking crushed. Hopefully a med adjustment will get me on track. Cant get much worse at this point.
    Just trying to live 1 day at a time.

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    Re: In a nutshell.....

    Quote Originally Posted by daironmonk View Post
    Another Doctors visit today to schedule with the Psych in the intensive program to evaluate the meds I'm on currently. Broke down yesterday and had an emergency visit to the doctors office. which led up to it. And to top it off my EQ is shit at this point. Wifey says she understands but Im freaking crushed. Hopefully a med adjustment will get me on track. Cant get much worse at this point.
    Keep the faith Brother you are doing the right thing! Demand that your medications not interfere with your PE/Sex life. For example, before Wellbutrin I was on Zoloft which I was not able to get erections or cum, it sucked big time. I demanded a change! Wellbutrin did the trick. I was this was with every medication until they got it perfect. Today I live a very good life because of the medication cocktail that has been perfected for me. Next, never, ever feel bad about going to the hospital, I usually spend 3-6 months a year in the psych ward! (No Joke) I work from there but for 15 years I have needed it. For the past 2.5 years I have not been to the hospital because of the medications. Also, do not sleep on the cognitive part, medication is only one piece, cognitive work is the other.

    Here is a page that gives some cognitive practices that will really help: Top Ten Natural Antidepressants
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