My experience with this whole game went through many stages. I have been on pretty high doses of certain medications that throughout my adult years have slowly made getting a good erection difficult. About 3 years ago I decided I wanted to do something about this. I did a simple google search on the net for this condition and the first link I clicked brought me to the back door of some Penis Enlargement site that I still have no clue to who it was. I printed out the complete info and started to read. I had no interest at the time of increasing the size of my penis nor did I think it even possible. I never felt small, I did have some faith in the exercises geared at increasing erection strength. I decided to do the whole program anyway to see what happens. Now it is very important to understand the claims this guy made and how that affected my own results as I slowly gained faith in the entire program. He claimed a few things that seemed impossible to me at the time. Some being; gain 4" in one year, gain 2" of girth in one year, last longer, the hardest erection ever, among other extraordinary claim. Well about two months into the program, which I followed religiously, I started to notice changes, as did Jennifer. The first being stretch marks on the belly of my penis. Quickly following were much harder erections, I was lasting much longer, sex started to feel tighter, I noticed hair growing up the side of my penis, things just started to happen that he said would happen. I was a convert, I BELIEVED!
After my newfound confidence and faith in this program I started to add and incorporate. I still had not measured my penis but as I said that was not the original issue of doing these exercises. This program was intense and grueling. I took allot of time and was done daily. By the time I did finally measure I was 8.25" long and 6 months into the program. I started at 6.5" so this only made my confidence in his program that much greater. At this point I stumbled on to the peform.net site and started to read and study.
I actually felt discouraged about my gains thinking I should be closing in on at least a 3" gain because I was moving into the last third of my year. According to the original ligature 4" was what was promised and so far everything he promised materialized. This is when I made my first post at peforums.net. I came out saying how depressed I was about my minimal gains and needed some help to get bigger. Well this was not appreciated very much and an all out attack ensued on me. People thought I was full of shit and making all this up. It wasn't until further inspection that I realized the extent of my original gains. Soon after seeing what normal gains were I could appreciate the forum anger. I really wanted to be accepted by this elite force of Penis Enlargement brethren and I was willing to do what I needed to be accepted. At the time I posted my first pictures I was closing in around 9” in length and I about 6” of girth. I knew to be accepted, as a real person photos would be important. They were just the things to gain acceptance.
The first people that befriended me were Dino, Buster, DrGmerlin, Luvdadus, Twatteaser, Pamdaga and my long lost friend MisterEd. I was quickly encouraged to get involved in the forum and I slowly did. After reading how good my gains were in comparison to what people usually gained I entered my first plateau. I started to lose faith in the original text and start believing I made all the gains I could. 10” seemed out of the question and I stopped believing. This is when I met Bib (Bigger). When I heard he broke these barriers I quickly regained my faith and redesigned my entire program.
I started looking into all forms of science and how they apply to penis enlargement. I took a particular interest in simple machines and how I could incorporate this knowledge into my own manual exercises. Around this time I had injured myself with a tear to the frenulum. This forced me to take a break from Penis Enlargement. During this time I did a ton of research. I remember how I took a special interest in kegels and how these seemed to be a very big difference in my program compared to many of the other guys. I started experimenting with reverse kegels and I found a very important link to LIG gains and stretching. This was during rest so it was all theory at the time. When I healed I jumped head first into physical applications of my studies and the BLASTERS were born. I had literally piles and piles of notes and ideas for exercise. I had more than 40 different techniques I was working with. This whole time I kept a close, illustrated record of all of it. I was working with a number of guys on their program that became part of my notes. These physical trials with other men were refreshing because they were seeing similar gains to me.
During this entire process I was suffering with my own mental disorders and felt so connected to this forum that I decided to start being honest with these issues. I suffer from acute O.C.D. (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder) and as a result I am agoraphobic. Due to this disorder basic life is very difficult for me to live. I cannot go into public. It takes hours to bathe, I cannot hold any type of job, and normal relationships are a luxury I will probably never see. (Thank God for you guys and my dear Jennifer) My initial fear of rejection was quickly dimmed by the incredible support I received. This led to some of the studies I have worked on. The friends I made in these forum really encouraged me to take control of my problems and start doing something about it. Over the following months I jumped head first into “Is Everything you See Really what Your Seeing”, The Yakface thread “Self-View”, and my numerous other threads addressing these problems and what to do. The people of these forums quickly did not only embrace me but I was joined in my struggle. I found out that many men suffered from some of the same problems I did. Since that time I have devoted much time to working on these issues and offering help to my brothers in these forums. I saw that when I could help someone I was truly helping myself. I worked on some other important studies that helped identify obsessive compulsiveness in Penis Enlargement and steps to relieve this. Most of my work is available within the forums.
I divided my time between Peforums, Cheeky Cherry, Thundersplace and PridePenis. I spent my days doing Penis Enlargement, developing exercise, working one on one with guys and my continued studies of the physical and mental aspects of the penis enlargement. I had found my love and Penis Enlargement was it.
Sometime about a year ago I had compiled many exercises. I kept very good notes and records of my progress. I also kept very accurate drawings of my work. Times were getting tough for me financially. I was spending my days in the various Penis Enlargement forums, developing exercise, working with guys and doing my own program. I had to make a decision. If I stayed involved with the Penis Enlargement world at the level I was I was going to be out on the street with nothing (but a big dick of course) I did not want to stop my involvement, I loved Penis Enlargement. I loved the people involved. I finally found a way to help others as I helped myself and this felt really good. I went to Thunder for advice. I asked him how he thought I would do with a paysite. He gave me allot of encouragement and I really saw a positive future. A future doing what I love and being able to pay my bills.
At this point I had gotten in touch with my dear friend JAZ. He has been the one friend I have had through most of my life and someone I could trust and count on. I went to work….he went to work…hours turned into days turned into weeks turned into months. I wanted a site that was a true reflection of my Penis Enlargement spirit and I wanted it to be second to none. I was working my own Penis Enlargement in throughout the days…thank GOD for LAZY ASS STRETCHES.
After about 3 months of 80-hour weeks MoS was born! It was my baby and I was so proud of it. It was everything I wanted it to be. I could not wait to let my friends see the test site and give me feedback. I remember I let a few guys in to see it. Everyone loved it; accept Thunder, which really depressed me because I had great admiration for him. Somewhere around this time my welcome had worn out at Thundersplace and I was not sure what I was going to do. I felt like my life was ending…everything I worked so hard for just seemed to crash down around me. I had to do something so the Paysite Jaz and I worked so hard on was going to feature a private user forum. Well that private forum became the public forum you guys see today. Within a weeks time I had left Thundersplace, opened my paysite and launched MoS free forums. I was scared out of my mind. I really thought I was going to fail without Thunders help…and it was hard. I had to start over again and I knew this was going to be hard work.
During most of this period my gains pretty much stood still. I had broken the 10” barrier and my girth still hovered around 6.5”. I felt my dick had to be on hold while I got this other stuff going. I trained daily but it was more to relieve stress than make gains. After the site was launched and open to the public I was finally able to get back to exercise development and making gains. I was able to spend allot more time within the medical sites studying the penis and brain storming exercise. Since then it has been pretty smooth sailing. I developed the GIRTH BUSTERS, which were my doorway to 7” of girth (post workout). I was also able to tack on another .75 of erect length thanks to the introduction of SUPenis EnlargementR-SETS. Everything has really come together. Although I am still very poor, I am extremely rich in friends. A year ago I thought I was all done…today I am proud of my perseverance.
My NBP Stats have changed over the past few months due to weight gain. I hope to get back into aerobic activity to reclaim my NBP size.