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cladre60;730078 said:

Damn dude, you've been down some dark alleys haven't you?

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I never assume I know another man's journey

cladre60;730078 said:

Damn dude, you've been down some dark alleys haven't you?

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All of them! That is why I can relate to many men.

Big Schwanz Acht;730099 said:

I never assume I know another man's journey

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Sometimes it's interesting to hear people's stories. A guy at work told me how he was raised and it explained his temper. Certainly doesn't justify it and he needs to work on it but his upbringing explained a lot about his behaviors and mannerisms.

doublelongdaddy;730108 said:

All of them! That is why I can relate to many men.

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It certainly helps when you've been in the same place as someone else. I'm sure you and I could have some long and serious discussions.

Once you're an adult and able to think/choose for yourself, it then becomes a decision in how you conduct your life, behave within society and be responsible for your own happiness. Playing the 'blame game' is just a lame form of laziness and not being accountable...everyone is dealt their hand, I feel fortunate just to have a 'chip and a chair'

cladre60;730141 said:

It certainly helps when you've been in the same place as someone else. I'm sure you and I could have some long and serious discussions.

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Yup, I have been to hell and back, but I have also died and came back so I have a very appreciative and unique perspective on life. Prior to dying in a Heroin overdose, (8 minutes down) I came out a very different person. This happened on Valentines day 1999. My life was a total mess and I no longer wanted to be here so I kneeled in front of my Crucifix and begged Jesus to take me out, I wanted to die, I no longer wanted to live in this awful world. After I prayed I sat down and shot dope and died. My Brother found me and called the emergency units and when they got there they told Him there was no reason to revive, I had been dead to long. My Brother demanded they give me Narcan, after 3 shots I came out and I saw the healing of the ambulance and all I could think was, why? Why am I still here? I had 5 years hanging over my head and I knew the police found all my gear and drugs so I knew I was going to prison for at least 5 years. The good Lord intervened and I was spared the punishment and went to a 12 month rehab. I had met a girl in rehab and she moved in with me, her name was Jen. This brought me to a new kind of hell, one that would crush me for years. She really broke my heart and it drove me into a 5 year reclusion. I was at the hospital every year for 3-6 months, suicide was a constant obsession.

I had a very tough childhood (if it could even be called that as I spent most of my early years in detentions and children’s homes.) By the time I was 18 I was so jaded and messed up by society and the way I was mistreated that I took on a very emotionless, tough and mean position. I was over protective of myself. If anyone did anything to me that I perceived as harmful I would attack and I would not stop until they were no loner moving. They should have called me Mr. Misunderstood. I was only protecting myself from a world that was filled with pigs and perverts, men who took advantage of children! So from childhood to adulthood my life was very hard.

I give the credit to the Brotherhood for pulling me through this. The love of Jesus and the patience and love of my Brothers here got me to where I am today. I have not been to the hospital for 3 years now. I have a peaceful, happy, loving life that is entrenched in the love of Jesus and my fellow Brothers. I would have never thought in a million years I would be here today. If it were not for those who cared about me I wouldn’t be around. My testimony to the Brotherhood and the good Lord is prayer and love brings change. Sure, I got a bigger penis here but nothing compares to the virtues I have learned here and through Christ.

Today I have a Son with 2 beautiful GrandChildren, I have a family who cares deeply for me, I have the Brotherhood, a gift from God, to help me daily with the things I struggle with. I would not change one thing in my life, it all brought me to here I am today. No regrets only appreciation for the blessing and trials I have received.

I'm basically speechless right now and that doesn't happen often....

cladre60;730301 said:

I'm basically speechless right now and that doesn't happen often....

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Is what it is but I would not change one moment of it. God's plans are much bigger than my ways.

doublelongdaddy;730390 said:

Is what it is but I would not change one moment of it. God's plans are much bigger than my ways.

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I know what you're saying.

Why are recovering addicts/alcoholics, the ones that are truly recovering and not just going through the motions, so damn happy? I've met my fair share of people in recovery and they're the happiest people ever. Plenty I've met go through their day like breakfast was a quadruple espresso enema filled with rainbows and unicorns.

It's amazing. I'm jealous and want to know the secret! Lol

I'd definitely recommend introducing PE in the form of jelqing to advocates girlfriend.(Well not me personally, but you know lol) my ex loved it hehe. Also it gives you a bit of a confident booster for some odd reason.

doublelongdaddy;730390 said:

Is what it is but I would not change one moment of it. God's plans are much bigger than my ways.

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Everything happens for a reason and if it was not for the past you would not exist as the person you are today, You had one hell of a past and its quite relieving to see despite that past your present seems to be a happy and kind one.

cladre60;730553 said:

Why are recovering addicts/alcoholics, the ones that are truly recovering and not just going through the motions, so damn happy? I've met my fair share of people in recovery and they're the happiest people ever. Plenty I've met go through their day like breakfast was a quadruple espresso enema filled with rainbows and unicorns.

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Too often we take for granted everything that we have whether that be family, friends or even the brothers on mos that until we make that realization, perhaps its hitting the bottom that you can see just how much more there is. Those that can hit the bottom and climb there ways out deserve that happiness they earned it and Im proud of each and everyone that make that attempt.

Sinthious;730566 said:

Everything happens for a reason and if it was not for the past you would not exist as the person you are today, You had one hell of a past and its quite relieving to see despite that past your present seems to be a happy and kind one.



Too often we take for granted everything that we have whether that be family, friends or even the brothers on mos that until we make that realization, perhaps its hitting the bottom that you can see just how much more there is. Those that can hit the bottom and climb there ways out deserve that happiness they earned it and Im proud of each and everyone that make that attempt.

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The only thing I ever get digging up the past is dirty

When I try to look into the future I have a better shot at mega millions

When I stay in the moment, I am invincible!

Sinthious;730566 said:

Everything happens for a reason and if it was not for the past you would not exist as the person you are today, You had one hell of a past and its quite relieving to see despite that past your present seems to be a happy and kind one.



Too often we take for granted everything that we have whether that be family, friends or even the brothers on mos that until we make that realization, perhaps its hitting the bottom that you can see just how much more there is. Those that can hit the bottom and climb there ways out deserve that happiness they earned it and Im proud of each and everyone that make that attempt.

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That actually makes a lot of sense. Thanks.